Church, self care, self love

Self Care Sunday, February 12th

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I’m writing this after a very long day and weekend.

I’m sipping my decaf Ruta Maya coffee with raw sugar and half and half.  The kids are asleep and Robert is chilling on the couch.

I forgot what it’s like to be super busy two days in a row.  Lately I have been going to town only on Wednesdays and Sundays.  While Wednesdays can be exhausting, I don’t have to get moving super early so that’s nice.

Yesterday we had a fantastic day, but it was busy from the get-go (Levi’s birthday party day and we had family here).

Today we had to get up and moving quickly.  We left out of here at 8:30 (this is early for me to leave these days) to get to church by 10:00.

I actually felt very pretty today, so I took a selfie and had Robert take a picture of my new LulaRoe leggings :-).

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Christ Church Kerrville was fantastic as it always is.  I always learn so much from the pastor there.  The church is small, which we like after being at a huge church for several years.  The preaching is deep.  I love that he speaks truth every Sunday.  I love worshipping through hymns, and I love that the kids are learning some of the hymns that I learned as a child.  The boys always go to children’s church after worship while Karis stays with us and takes notes (they have a specific place for kids to take notes in the bulletin) :-).

We had an amazing lunch with new friends (the pastor and his family).  The fact that we could have lunch with a pastor of a church is different from what we’ve been used to recently (with our old church being Chuck Swindle’s church).  The food was excellent and we enjoyed great conversation.  We just felt right at home with them.  I’m looking forward to talking with them more as I start to learn about the Presbyterian church.  He’s a former Southern Baptist like me, so he can appreciate specific questions that I have.

We ran a few errands, got some more groceries, and finished out our Sunday trip in town with my favorite Sonic Coke Zero with lime (self care!).

In true Courtney style, I couldn’t end the day with a messy house so I spent a little bit of time sweeping, vacuuming, doing dishes, picking up, etc.  It didn’t take long.  I had planned to do my prep for the week this afternoon since I didn’t get any done Friday or yesterday, but I was just too tired.  I’m home tomorrow and can do my prep then.  I don’t have much prep to do since I’m home most days now.

So my self care today was church, lunch with new friends, cleaning up the house a bit (yes, that’s self care for me), and now sipping my favorite coffee and blogging.  Oh, and I got a few new candles today that smell like spring (which go great with the weather we’ve had lately)!  Great way to end the week.

Body Positivity, Jesus, Mental Health, self care, self love, Vulnerability

Learning to Love Me

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Yesterday I wrote this post:

I am Your Anchor in the Wind and the Waves

Then last night I read this:

“I’m working on my abandonment issues, and I am also working on not saying ‘sorry to bother you.’ I’m not a bother, a nuisance or a burden; I’m a human being who deserves to be understood, loved and valued. I won’t let anxiety tell me anything otherwise, no matter how hard it tries.”

What It’s Like When Anxiety Tells You Everyone is Going to Leave You

It’s so spot on.  In every way.  I’m thankful that there are other people who understand what this is like!  It makes me feel less alone.

I have decided that it’s time to tackle this “self love” thing.  I am learning that I may not be everyone’s “cup of tea,” but I want to be happy with being me.

“What people think of me is none of my business.”  This was repeated in rehab often, and I need to repeat this daily.

All that matters is that my Savior loves me unconditionally, and He has grace for me every day.  I mean, He made me!  He made me on purpose, for a purpose.  That purpose is to share my struggles and how I overcome every day so that people have hope!

I decided to write a list of things that I like about myself (learning to love).

  • My eyes are pretty.
  • My freckles make me look unique.
  • My body is pretty great.  It shows that I’ve had 3 kids and that I’m no longer yo-yo dieting.  My husband loves it just as it is.  I’m taking good care of it by eating nutritious foods much of the time, but also nourishing it by eating foods I enjoy.  I’m allowing it to settle where it will.
  • I’m strong.  I have overcome a lot through the power of Jesus.  He makes me strong.
  • I’m a Christ follower.
  • I share my faith most days.
  • I’m vulnerable about my mental health and addiction.  Maybe this makes me brave and courageous?
  • I’m quirky.
  • I’m passionate about important stuff.
  • I am fighting hard to have a close relationship with my family (after lots of distance because of my illnesses and drinking).
  • I help other people going through mental illness and/or addiction.
  • I love people when others may not.  I love deeply.

What do you like about yourself (learning to love)?  You should make a list as well!